Friday, March 20, 2009
Today I went back to the doctor and they told me our precious baby was a girl. She had no chromosomal problems, so they believe that I have some kind of blood clotting disorder. They drew about 10 tubes of blood to test for several different problems that could cause a miscarriage. I will know the results in about 2 weeks. I was doing better but when they told me she was a girl, it really made me realize that she was real. We have decided to call her Haven(means a safe place and that is where she is with Jesus in a safe place) Joy(she truly was a joy even through this difficult time). We are considering her birth date to be February 20, because even though she wasn't alive when she was born, she still was a person and had a soul. I look at Hannah and Haley and wondered if she looked like them or if she would of had curly hair like they had. I wonder what color her eyes and hair would of been. What kind of personality she would of had. This is so hard, I just don't see how anyone could kill a baby. The doctor said I can try to get pregnant again after I have two cycles. Everyone just keep me in your prayers.